2 Months

Earned a total of $xxxx amount and here i am jobless, soon to be penniless.

Two months, no blog, no news, no sound, not even a single alphabet, i know, nobody bother either. Why should i? Not like i am going through adventure like Bear Grylls, putting whatever protein he can find in his mouth nor am i Mike Rowe doing different dirty jobs everyday. I am what i am, writing to just remind myself of who i am and how dumb am i years later. Oh and of course my friends who still cares will read all this. Hello!!

Obviously i am not in a freaking good mood, so everything won’t sound right for everybody, i apologise. After what seem like a small round, i am back here searching for a job in this vast murky economy, except now i am with another load call ‘studies’ on my back. Can i cope? Well till i find the elusive job, i shall hope for the best.

My table messy, my bedtop has a layer of dust, window is somehow dirty, my awaiting to be clean camera lay sliently one side of my cupboard, letters to read, reports to rush, TMAs to be submit, notes to print, textbooks to be read, bedsheet due for changing, nails to cut, shoe to be whiten, bills to pay, money to be deposit, STOP! I can carry on if i wanted to. Too many things not going right, too many things to be done, too many, my life just seem to be teeming with negative and unfinished stuff. Try burying yourself in a sand pit, you cleared a small space but next moment it is filled up with sand again, but you know you will die unless you dig yourself out, that’s how it feel like now. Where? Where is my spade? Forget it.

but then i am looking at it, staring at it, examining it closely, it seem like it, but then it doesn’t seem to want to be it, should i tell it? Oops.. Another ton of sand came down on that digged space called HOPE.

Friends, are made during my little experience at the checkpoint, some stay, some gone, some move closer.

To those who stay, hope everythings going well.

To those gone, hope everything be even better, and goodbye.

To those moved a step closer, welcome.

And to those reading this, i am going to sleep, good night. Have a great day ahead.

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